ANXIETYYY

we just applied for the cute little yellow house.
i am a big mess of anxiety.
it probably ruined my entire weekend.
we learned that there are 2 other couples that are going to see it today (luckily we were first)
it was perfect. it was everything we want.
our own little house. i can only imagine.
the best part is, rent will be the same amount as we pay now...only it will be in a house! a real house.
after we filled out the application, we walked outside and i immediately burst into tears. thats how bad i want this house.
im so stressed that we aren't going to get it.
greg thinks im stupid.
but it really stresses me out.
applying for married housing is a whole nother deal than applying for student housing.
credit checks, employment checks, financial obligation evaluations.
im dying. im a mess.
the end.

blah blah blah.

well...greg is at ward basketball. i have 14 minutes til he gets home. i finally sorta finished my paper due tomorrow. but i have an hour in between work and class :] so. i'll blog instead. even though i really have nothing to say. i just like saying things..just to say them.

little anxious cuz...we found a super cute little yellow house. we are going to go look at it tomorrow. oh i want to like it so badly. i want it to be our perfect home sweet home. i'm definitely not getting my hopes up. then i get so down when the house sucks. and realistically, it could suck. old houses in provo tend to be...really old. and really beat up. but apparently they just redid this one...we will see. it would certainly be fun to live in a cute little yellow house though wouldnt it? i think it would be delightful.

super excited cuz...this weekend is going to be so great. and so needed. tomorrow we are going to dinner to celebrate greg's 91% on his o-chem midterm. hibachi grill. yum. my favorite! saturday we are going on a group date with kate and beth. bowling..should be interesting..i'm really a great bowler. not. but we get to go for free at byu. score. i'll take it. (clarification..kate and beth both have dates..its not just me kate and beth plus greg...haha).

confession...im kinda loving ke$sha. yeah she's stupid and ditsy. yeah her songs are even stupider than she is. yeah she doesnt have any real talent. yeah i could sing her songs if i wanted and you probably wouldnt know the difference...but yeah, i like her. her songs are catchy. i sing them when i drive. i like it.

i have a crush on...apollo ono. its true. its a tiny one. but i think he is cutie. and he's fierce when he skates. i like it. ill be the first to admit..i have no clue who he was til my aunt introduced me... but hey. i jumped on the bandwagon. what can you do? hes a crazy skater! i like watching it.

i hate it when...you can feel a super big zit coming in..but you can see it yet...it just hurts like the dickens. yanno the feeling? maybe that was one of those too much information kind of comments. but as i read more blogs, i discover that the kind that i like best are the ones that have character..the ones that arent afraid to be real. so there ya go. it doesnt get more real than that! i look like i re-got the chicken pox. cuuuutee.

i re-discovered...fun-dips!! greg and i went to the nicklecade a few weeks ago. the only thing we could afford with our tickets was fun-dips. and i was perfectly okay with that. i love em!! yum. don't worry. i ate them all. i didn't even leave one for him. and technically he was the one who won the tickets. i sucked at the games...except skee ball which i totally rocked. i got lots of practice at skee ball when i was little. im practically a pro. too bad skee ball is skimpy on its tickets!



i have this class...its an advanced writing class. gag. its taught by 2 grad students. they think they're so cool. truth be told...they're actually pretty funny. but. they grade harder than anyone i've ever taken a class from. get this...they gave me an 88% on a resume. how do you grade a resume?? get this too...i copied it from sam. who got a 99% on it. it was the exact same thing. except it had my name and my jobs on it. what the heck?? doesn't make sense to me. they give us so much homework its ridiculous. for example...the 20 source annotated bibliography...which we had one week to do..or the 5 source critical literature review...which we had 2 days to do. lovely. i love college oh so much. cant you tell?

i get confused...by this weather!! seriously. whats goin on here? it will be sunny and warm...short sleeves kind of weather.. then the next day, its -7 when i leave for school. seriously? that should probably change! its almost march. the way i see it...spring starts in march..its full fledged spring by april. please??

in other news...

this is the loo of the year 2006. and yes folks, i have been there. i used that loo. and what a lovely loo it was. despite the fact that it had no mirror (they took it down so that they could hang up the loo of the year plaque) and no way for me to dry my hands. that kinda sucked.

this particular loo is located in porthcuno. let me tell you about my trip to porthcurno.

we were scheduled to go to lands end and st. michaels mount. instead our director (who really liked to make final decisions without telling anyone) decided that he wanted to go porthcurno...a beach that he thought he remembered going to once 25 years ago. so he made us leave Polperro early, and drive seriously 3 hours to this beach. we were optimistic..we got out, and it was so anticlimactic. i was bugged. it was so stupid!! hellloooo. who would want to go here instead of st michaels? which by the way, i never got to see thanks to this detour. the beach part was probably as long as half of a football field. thats it. and the water was freezing. and it was raining. good choice tommy. good choice. but...we did get to take a picture infront of the ocean!

 

there were these really odd skinny small steps carved into the side of the mountain. where did they go, you may ask? no where. they just went up. or down. depending on which way you look at it i guess.

 

weird...

but. atleast we got to see the loo of the year 2006?

i take it allll back.

well... i spoke too soon. serves me right!
we still have some good options of places that we could move to...we are going to look at another one in about an hour.
the super cute condo...turned out to be a condo split into 4 condos....translation it was ITSY BITSY!
there is another option that we both loved when we first saw it..but after we thought about it for a little while neither of us thought that it was really the best thing for us to do right now.
so...maybe a summer back east is still in the cards for us? we will see.
and next time before i get overly excited about something...i will make sure we have decided for sure. haha.

i rocked the turquoise sweater today.
i loved it.
i felt sassy.
i walked a little taller all day.
what a good feeling.

i should be reading my 47 pages about Islamic philosophy...but seriously, who really wants to do that? not i.
school is really kicking my butt this week. i honestly can't really believe that it is only wednesday night. this week is positively crawling.

i went visiting teaching tonight. it really was a small blessing. it was what i needed to do tonight. isnt it funny how this works...i have so much that needed to get done tonight. i was tired and cold. it was raining outside. i didn't want to do anything really. but i went. and i feel just a little bit better. (only a little...haha) but i have the greatest companion. she's lots of fun. and so positive. who doesn't like to hang out with a positive person?? note to self...be positive...people will want to be your friend!

one of my favorite parts of the lesson tonight was this quote by Elder Worthlin:

"It takes a great amount of faith to say the simple words "We just can't afford that."" 

oh how hard it is sometimes for me to say those words (haha..simple?? says who?!)

i like buying things. i like having new things. i like having new clothes...ie turquoise sweaters and new gold heels. its hard for me. i really need to work on that.

photo...

 

oh how i love this little boy. i guess he isn't so little is he? he really is one of the sweetest boys that i know. when we were younger (okay i wasnt so much younger...it was more like when i was in high school) we just didn't get along. our personalities clashed. but every now and then we would have this little moment where i knew that we were so much like each other. i see so much of my personality in him. it's almost funny!! i love him so much. i have the best brothers. and i love him so much.

 

and so it is.

we have decided. huzzah for us.
we are moving! we got it all cleared with the landlord.
we aren't sure where yet...we have some options...we are going to look at a town home tomorrow.
and oh is it cute!!
we are so excited to have just a tiny bit more space (we will finally be able to have a kitchen table!! yay!)

i went to target tonight.
and bought the cutest diva heels.
and a turquoise sweater.
its a little bright....i was a little self conscious...im not quite the turquoise sweater wearing type.
but sam said that i could be the turquoise sweater wearing type.
and truth be told, i kinda want to be the turquoise sweater wearing type.
so i bought it.
yay!

i really can't believe that it is only tuesday. it's shocking how slowly this week has decided to crawl by.
what can you do?
tonight some idiot guy parked in our parking space.
well actually, he parked in two parking spaces...half in our spot and half in the spot next to us.
what a lovely surprise to come home at 10 only to find that you can't park in your parking garage.
good thing we are outta here.

photo of the day...

 

this one is for sam.

i would just like you to take a minute, samantha darling, to remember this horrifying creation on brighton pier.

in no way was this ride fun. 

it swung us way out over the ocean off the edge of the pier. and we were strapped in for dear life, so if the ride had somehow broken and we had fallen, there was no hope of escaping the seat and swimming to the top. 

we were stuck. hopelessly stuck.

yes, it was an experience that i will never forget.

was it worth it? probably not worth the 5 pounds that i paid to ride it.

i have honestly never been so terrified while on a ride before.

sheer terror.

i was shaky for atleast an hour afterwords.

oh the crazy things that happen across the pond.

for ettie.

i dedicate this post to my aunt ettie....who is very opinionated on the subject of my desire to have babies.

well...the day has come. i think i have moved past the baby hunger stage. its true. this is a very good thing. definitely a step in the right direction for now. (mind you...this could be today...and tomorrow could be a whole different story. ill keep you updated. nooo worries.)

we are trying to figure out our summer plans. we have so many options.

1. something just came up and we could get out of our apartment contract...and move into this adorable 2 story condo with a garage in orem that we have secretly been coveting for the past couple weeks (best part..it would cost LESS than what we are paying now..if you can even believe that). i would go to school like i have been planning and greg would work. i would graduate in decemeber. i could play with sam everyday all summer. we could see my family a ton like we love to do. there are plenty of pluses in this situation.

2. we are toying with the idea of moving to north carolina for the summer so that greg could do some shadowing with a dentist that he knows. this is a little bit of a scary option to me for several reasons (ie. where would we store all of our stuff, where would we live, what would i do while he was shadowing?)...but i promised greg that i wouldn't dwell on it until we talk it out and make some decisions...so i won't go into the "cons" just yet...instead i will tell you all of the totally awesome things that would come from it! first, greg told me that he would take me to disneyworld for a weekend. (this in and of itself almost made me make the decision right there and then!!) second, we could take advantage of myrtle beach.. i would get a nice tan...play at the beach...eat good food. definite plus. third, there are so many places that i want to go. the job that greg would be working would only be 4 days per week, so we could go on some totally awesome weekend trips (ie. savannah, charleston, new york...oh my) fourth, it would be a blast to just pack up and go for the summer. leave provo, take a break from school...have the guarantee of nice weather!

3. we are applying to a few internships and pre-dental summer programs for greg. any one of these would be super awesome. the thing is...we didn't think to do this until a little too late...so we are pushing the deadlines, and have already missed the deadlines for lots of the programs that we would have loved to get in to. (maybe next summer on those?) problems...we would have to find an apartment in a random state for 2 or 3 months, we would have to find somewhere to store all of our stuff...i wouldn't have anything to do...but again, i promised greg that i wouldn't stress until we know whether or not we actually get accepted to a program.

these are the main three...anyway, im already so stressed out about making this decision..i can only imagine trying to make the decision for 3 of us instead of just 2 of us. wow. so..thats the story of the day that jordan decided that she was super content with her life just the way it is. plus...we like going out to eat...we like randomly going out..we like going to late movies...we like staying up late and sleeping in late....we like spending our money on little extras...i just dont think that i'm ready for that to stop. i see friends of mine who are having babies and buying houses and whatnot. i just cant imagine having that kind of a financial burden (among other things..) right now! I love our (relatively) cheap rental payment and being able to go where we want and do what we want and spend our money how we want, without really having to be too super worried about our budget. its nice. im not ready for that kind of stress. im content. (finally...praise heaven.)

seriously...i get stressed out much too easily. its kind of ridiculous. actually very ridiculous. i just dont know how to deal!! every little thing stresses me out. its a mess. but then big things...tests...research papers...they just dont really phase me. i need to work on that big time.

greg has been taking an o-chem test for the last 3 1/2 hours. he still isn't home. dinner will be done in 6 minutes. blah. a test that long would definitely be the death of me. i would not do so well. bless him for choosing such a major! oh my.

photos of the day...

this would definitely have to be one of my favorite memories from london (okay, but seriously...how do you pick a favorite memory?) seriously...this is so much harder than it looks...and those lions are so much bigger and higher up and more slippery and hotter than they look...

 well..my boy still isnt home. and dinner is ready...just sitting...and getting cold. its tragic. i know. i hope he survives the black hole that is the testing center....poor boy.

hey soul sister

greg had a practice DAT this morning.
i have to write a 20 source annotated bibliography by monday.
im home alone..the apartment is quiet...what better time than to write the beast?
wrong.
instead, i have completely deep cleaned everything.
mind you...that doesn't take much in our shoe box of an apartment...
but it was a lovely alternative to finding 20 peer reviewed journal articles about this sucker

 

(it is pretty sweet though, huh? oh i do love my major)

 anyway. i listened to a magical combination of hey soul sister, say hey (i love you), fireflies, and -of course- your body is a wonderland., and cleaned away.

in other news...

we discovered (thanks to ettie) this delish new mexican restaurant in springville. oh my -  its so yummy! we went last night with sean and alena, then we went and saw leap year in the dollar theater. i had already seen it with sam - and it was just as good the second time! it is so cute. and very funny. i loved it.

tonight i think i'm going to drag greg to see did you hear about the morgans. i want to see it real bad...thats not selfish right?

school is going fine. we are both working hard this semester. greg is in some ridiculous classes. but! we are half way done!! only 35 (ish) more days of classes! its somewhere in the 60's if you include weekends...but who's counting? im trying to decide whether or not to take spring/summer classes this semester. i was totally going to, and then i would graduate in december...(which would be so cool), but recently i've been second guessing myself. greg isn't going to be done for atleast another year and a half...

(sidenote...backstreet boys "get another boyfriend" just came on my ipod. seriously, what great music. good heavens.)

...and so i will just be working some crappy 8-5 job (cuz we all know that i won't be able to get a job thats worth working with my major! haha.) and we all know how excited i am about that prospect. so... whats the rush? maybe i should just enjoy my summer working somewhere and gradute in april like everyone else? i just have no idea what to do. heaven help me make a decision! good grief.

my best friend katelyn is getting married in april! oh how happy i am for her. and i'm even happier that she is getting married in utah so that i can be there! we went a looked a dresses on monday. she looked so pretty in all of them. the one that she picked is gorgeous and makes her look like a princess. i can't wait for her to start life as a married woman! haha. she is going to be a super fabulous wife. she's gona show us all up. so watch out! beth and i are planning her bridal shower. its gona be stellar. seriously...best bridal shower in bridal shower history. im quite excited about my oh so creative ideas. :] hehe.

um. im getting fat? yes. its true. im turning into a blob. its disgusting. therefore...im joining a gym. *gasp* i know. you're all shocked. but for real. im not a skinny pretty. im a chunk. thats the end of that!

 well. on that note. here is the photo of the day. (it requires a bit of background info...)

when i was on scotland this summer, my dear friend sam thought that it would be a fun idea to force me to hike this mountain called "king arthur's seat"

yes...to the very tip of the ghastly mountain. it was supposedly a "pretty view" from the top. i complained. i kicked and screamed. but everyone was doing it. literally. it was not a peer pressure technique to tell me that. it was definitely the truth. so it was either hike the killer mountain..or chill in edinburgh by myself for a couple of hours. hm. lets see. those choices suck!! so. up the mountain i went. let me give you another perspective of just how giant this sucker is.

 

it is a serious hike!! im not a hiker. thats just the way it is! so...this was the result by the time i got to the top.

if this picture does not make you laugh...nothing ever will...except perhaps this...

oh boy. im smokin. greg is such a lucky guy dont you think?  seriously - it doesnt get uglier than that. this was my "im seriously disappointed with this view, which is not at all worth that death hike that i just took" face. plus, it was so dang windy up there i almost blew off. good gracious. what an unattractive person i can be!!

well. thats enough self-humiliation for today! hope life is treating you well :]

i borrowed this from sam...

and oh how i love it!!

sometimes..

sometimes i watch too much tlc.
sometimes i just really really want a baby.

sometimes i want a girl so that i can dress her in tutu's.

sometimes i want to name her isabella...izzy.
sometimes i want to name her stella.
sometimes i want to name her CLARA

sometimes i want a little boy so that i can put him in chucks.
sometimes i want to name him jack.
sometimes i want to name him tate.
sometimes i want to name him oliver.

 

but only sometimes.

long awaited...i'm sure.

since i'm sure i have so many people reading my blog who want an update..here ya go! haha.

school is...going pretty great. my classes this semester are actually surprisingly interesting. i'm in a humanities of islam class that is really super interesting. only problem - it's an hour and 15 minute class. i clock out after the regular 50 minutes. for the other 25 i'm just plain antsy!! i'm also in a pearl of great price class - it is hands down my favorite religion class that i have ever taken. i have never learned so many things! each class period is so fascinating. i love it. i'm registered for spring and summer classes. 9 credits each term! i hope i survive. i'm so ready to graduate though!! i just have to push through it. haha.

i am grateful for...the temple being so close. we've been able to go a few times since we got home from Christmas break. i just love it! i feel so happy whenever we come home from being there. i am also grateful for sammy. my lifesaver of a friend. she just gets me. she thinks like i do. she understands me. we don't have to talk. just sit. i like it. she's fun.

i get frustrated when...people don't give credit to BYU for being as hard as it is...or in other words when people think that the grades that they get at other universities are comparable to the grades that BYU students get. I work way harder than you...so just cuz you get good grades - doesn't really mean much to me!  not that i'm stuck up or anything...i promise i'm not. but i'm just sayin. i get frustrated when people don't give the credit that's due!

i love...vanilla diet coke from sonic, owl city, cheesecake brownies, my big comfy bed, google translate, popcorn, blankets, socks, veronica mars (new tv show addiction...too bad it was actually on tv a couple years ago) shade clothing sales, my new rock and republic jeans, toast with butter and honey...just to name a few of my recent loves.

i get happy when...the sun is so shiny! it has been beautiful the last couple days. so sunny. yesterday when i was driving home from school my car said that it was 49 degree's outside! so nice. i love it. i cant wait for spring. apparently the groundhogs this year were conflicted in their opinion..some saw their shadows and some didnt...really? lets just all agree on a story. thanks!

i am recently addicted to...get this...pickles and cheese. i know that's disgusting sounding. but no joke - a valasic dill pickle..and a slice of extra sharp cheese. YUM! i'm not even kidding. its delish. i'm also addicted to walmart brand carbonated flavored water that comes in giant bottles. no sugar..no aspartame...just delicious yum.

we went..to the basketball game on saturday night. super fun. im way glad that we decided to go. it was byu v utah. so it was fun to be there simply by virtue of the fact that it was against our greatest rivals. the crowd was electric. you could feel the buzz in the air. and talk about the opening of the game...i have never seen such an awesome opening!! i was totally giggling the whole time.

i saw...the movie leap year a few weeks ago. it is totally adorable. i love it. and would definitely see it again. it was the perfect chick flick. not too gaga, not too serious, super funny. it was super fun.

i started...project 356. (no, it's not a photo project like everyone else...)

i listen to....so mcuh country music these days! oh how i love it. it makes me feel happy. its kinda how love should be. i like it.

i'm excited for...valentines day!! this is my first married valentines day...greg better not leave me hangin!! last valentines day was...amazing. because i planned it. alena and i stayed up ALL night heart attacking greg and seans apartment. we planed an amazingly extravagant scavenger hunt all through provo - a sort of walk through our relationship, if you will. presents at every stop. it was super cute, if i do say so myself. the scavenger hunt ended at the hot springs in the mountains with zupas for dinner. seriously. it was bomb. one of the funnest dates that i've been on in my life!

well.thats all. boring post. no pictures. no real stories. mostly..i'm just sitting in the library waiting for greg to get out of class and i'm sick of doing homework.

cheers!